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Pick Up Your Sword

Sword

I hung up the phone and leaned back in my chair. Humbled. Reeling, a little. Not understanding why things happen the way they do in this life. I squeezed my eyes shut, feeling tears edge out on my eyelashes.

It was a quiet, rainy Saturday. I was drinking coffee and working my way through verse mapping in Romans when I received a text message from a friend. She’d been through the worst week imaginable – they were poised to bury her grandson after his sudden death. And she reached out to talk to me.

Up to that point, I’d had one of those weeks– fighting a nasty early-autumn cold, battling arrows of a packed schedule with work and kids, and the uncertainty surrounding some upcoming decisions for our family’s future. In those moments, these things seemed very BIG to me. They’d been weighing me down, making me feel weak. Near broken, if I’m honest. And totally unprepared for battle. When I crumbled under the pressures of daily life, I felt like a failure because I wasn’t handling the fight very well.

Until I talked with my friend.

She was faithful but broken. Strong but weak. Ever-trusting God, even in the midst of complete uncertainty and unimaginable grief. We prayed together, and I tried my best to offer encouragement. But what happened as a result was the exact opposite– she encouraged me.

It’s not giving up to ask for help. It’s going back into battle with your chin notched and your eyes locked.

Pick up your sword!

That’s what I kept thinking. It’s not weak to cry out to God, saying, “I’m broken. I can’t do this alone!” In fact, it’s the opposite. When I’m at my weakest, God’s at His strongest. When I’m weary, He’s steadfast. When I’m disappointed, shamed, humbled, bruised and broken, that’s when He’s ready to step in and claim the victory on my behalf.

When my eyes are LOCKED ON JESUS, there’s strength to go on fighting. Why? Because He’s stepping in front, deflecting the arrows for my sake. And I realized that reaching out, getting real, and asking for His help… it’s not about throwing in the towel as a soldier. It’s certainly not about admitting defeat. It’s about picking up the sword and going into battle — knocking Satan flat because our Savior, Christ Jesus, has entered the fight for me.

“You will not need to fight in this battle. Stand firm, hold your position, and see the salvation of the LORD on your behalf, O Judah and Jerusalem. Do not be afraid and do not be dismayed. Tomorrow go out against them, and the LORD will be with you.”

—2 Chronicles 20:17 (ESV)

Lazy Saturdays don’t seem a likely candidate to be labeled battleground days. But I came away from a prayer-filled phone conversation with a renewed fervor to fight. To lean in to Jesus. To surrender MY will in place of HIS.

When you’re too weary to fight, when you’re broken and just plain exhausted, do the counter-intuitive thing and step back into the ring– confident, because you’re not alone.

Pick up your sword!

To His fight,

Kristy_sig

8 thoughts on “Pick Up Your Sword

  1. So often we focus on our own plight and feel defeated. Regardless of what has happened, or what will happen, I will go to my grave believing I am one of the most blessed people on the planet. I recall years ago while stationed in Iraq I was talking to a friend about just how stressful my life was at the time and he started to explain to me what real stress was. At that very moment, when I was laminating about the woes of my life, he was waiting on an email from his wife letting him know if their son (less than a year old if I recall correctly) had survived the most recent of a series of difficult heart operations. I had no concept of what stress was; he did. I believe if we focus our prayer on the significant difficulties of others Gid will in turn fix our obstacles. At the very least, praying for others will put our problems in the right perspective.

    1. Steve ~ What an awesome comment. You bring us quite a reminder. Things get put in perspective sometimes, and with that can come conviction to PRAY for and focus our hearts on others. That’s a very Christ-like attitude. I love it. Thank you so much for posting this!

  2. Such an eye opening post. I’ve been feeling depressed and defeated this week. So much has happened to me this year and I’m looking to 2016 to be better.
    But there’s always someone a little worse off or more in need of prayer. It’s better to take our eyes off of ourselves and focus on others.
    Thanks Kristy for this post.

    1. Oh Gail, I am so sorry. Sister, I’ve been there. Sometimes our weeks are just HARD. And it helps to be real, to admit that. Doesn’t it? Sometimes we just need to voice the “weak” in our hearts and lean in to Jesus. Praying for you, dear friend!

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