If I take the wings of the morning,
And dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea,
Even there Your hand shall lead me,
And Your right hand shall hold me.
—Psalm 139:9-10 (NKJV)
When my Dad was battling leukemia, he learned he’d need a bone marrow test that was rumored to be painful. He never complained during chemo or any of the surgeries or treatments, but I could sense the apprehension in his voice about this one. Imagine this larger-than-life guy — a 6’4″ cowboy hat-wearing guy from Michigan — showing shades of fear that his daughter had never seen before.
I told him to do the only thing that’s worked for me in the past:
“Put your hand out, Dad. Lay your palm bare before God, and he will fill it.”
We couldn’t go in the room during the test and I hated the feeling of having left him alone.
He told me later that in the thick of fear, and pain, and vulnerability… it took a lot to do it, but he put his hand out on the hospital bed, palm up to heaven, and just closed his eyes. The nurse in the room with him saw his palm and filled it — with hers.
I will never forget the look in his eyes when he told me what that moment meant to him. That God cared enough to see that my Dad was reached in the ONE WAY that would mean the most to him in that instant. No one else knew of our conversation except God. And no one else could fill the need, except Him.
Psalm 139 is a powerful chapter.
It’s a love letter from God to us.
And I love that whether we soar above the mountaintops or dwell in the depths, He is ever-present. Involved. Planning our comfort and care, especially when we’re locked in a battle with the uttermost moments of our lives.
God makes YOU His personal business and He’ll fill our emptiness — a hand, or a heart — every time.